Sometimes it's not that i'm doubting the lord it's just that its just so hard to believe his existence.
I know i've failed as a christian if i said i'm doubting, but that's the truth for me now.
I really dont know should i carry on, stay believe and stay faithful to lord...
.....

Im feeling so helpless now.
Can you please please please please just make a miracle for me? At least make this semester a smoother journey for me. I feel like breaking apart, i feel so stressed up studying something that i dont like.
I feel so stressed up trying to attain good grades.
I feel so stressed up in a good class.
Please let me believe in you. Please.
(ok, dont judge me now. thxkbye)