Mood pretty ruined and upset today. Honestly, today is the suckiest day in my entire life.If you're reading my blog and you're going to take your O level this year, head my advice. Go for something you really want to pursue, and not something your parents or what do you think holds most prospect in the future. I shouldn't chose Business informatics, i swear.

After webapp lessons, I received my results. It was really really very disappointing. I could have done so much better you know, why didn't i score better? Why. To think i've come from a rather known secondary school in the neighbourhood and I've sacrifice, sacrifice so much in order to score well. The impact hit me so hard, so damn hard that i remain silence throughout data structure and programming and decided not to talk to anybody, not even replying one single text. Hold back my tears, puting a smile on my face, pretending that everything is alright.

Then data structure was worse. We gotta redo our assignment task which we're going to be graded. I dont even know how i'm going to start honestly. In the first place, i don't even have any passion for IT at all, and this imprompt assignment is making it worse. Why i'm even whinning, why.

i've totally no mood for anything now, not even appetite for dinner. Think i'm destinated to be a failure for life. I suck. From next week onwards, i'm not going bring my ipod to distract me and i'm going full blast for my education now. Slack like mad during this sem, serious.

Thats one of my reaction when i saw my stats blogviews increase HAHA. Like from pathetic 10 to 20 then now 33 people viewed my blog today! HAPPY OR WHAT. Motivation to blog often ;)

I know I'm not pretty neither do i look cute. Some people tend to give me disgusted look when I said i'm cute. Ok kidding HAHAHA, it's just im playing with my friends then give me the errr. hmm. face. Nobody said im digusting yet thankfully hehheehehe. Life is pretty mundane with all the projects, like literally everyday projects projects now. Had some minor disputes with team mates because i really really can't stand people who broke promises. Why is it that our lives is constructed with promises built by liars? Say it when you mean it, dont say it when you don't.

Whatever it is, i hope we'll really bond ourselves as a team! Really excited for the presentations because we've many many plans to make our presentation interesting. Urgh, ok. I'm actually happy about doing project. This is insane -_____- Ok, back to projects already. i'll try post something pretty interesting soon. SATURDAY. Jiancheng birthday! I havent get my stuffs ready for his birthday. Im such a bad person. :(

The past few days my mood have been fluctuating rapidly. It scares me because for a moment I can be really happy and the next moment, I became damn irritated over trival matters. Just like today's video making, i couldn't do the convertion of RVL and I wanted to cry in the library, in front of my classmates. I don't know what happen to me, I just feel damn useless and wanted to pour out all my emotions. Depression symptoms already ha ha.

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i see potential, since is only like, 22 audience now -_-

So yesterday i went alone to contact lens factory. Was rather sad because i was sitting alone in bus throughout the ride. But well, glad i went to the place and learn how contact lenses are being processed and made. Went Cityhall to look for E402 at Justasia and celebrated Christine's 17th birthday! :)


 I feel damn awkward being the only person under-dressed for that day. Fyi, the shirt i'm wearing it's from Rivervale Primary school'06 primary 5 camp! I helped up as a youth alumni in the school.


 Damn cui fringe plus side view. WHEN DID I EVER LOOK NICE? *cries*


CAN YOU SEE A STAR THERE?!??!? omg, i managed to capture a star like after so many years. Okay, maybe it's dirt on my camera but HAHA, whatever it is i'm happy today! #fail.

Picture with victor! He taught me how do accounting for cash yesterday at the steps near mcdonalds. It's rather productive cos' i managed to get the terms already! Hip hip huray to victor~

What if the best part of me is.. you?
I was doing project and waiting for dumb to finish bathing then i had this strong urge to visit my past webpage. It really really contained many many memories and the sadness is so overwhelming that I teared. It's like, i've been through so much, dream big and yet, i've achieved so little. I've became so strong, really really strong. I'm not as weak as before, blaming myself and crying myself to sleep every night just because of minor tiff between my friends. People come and go as they pleased, and they are better with their lives now ( i guess)

Like when we're young, everything in our world seems perfect. Hanging out with friends late at night the playground, going friend's parties and giving them presents like wrapping up a hello kitty pencil case, walking home alone and feeling so contented and happy. That's life. It's really really nice reminisce about your past, looking at the past photos. Even the smile on my face seems so genuine and happy. If only.. just only.. my life can be that simple.

so, growing up and then, entering secondary school. I'm just like any girl growing up to become a adult.

I think this is kinda fun so imma going try it now! :)

1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!


1. If someone says, “shelf”, you say? - Hush hush

2. How would you describe yourself? - Here we go again

3. What do you like in a guy/girl? -  The story of us

4. How do you feel today? - Never had a dream come true

5. What is your life’s purpose? - Thinking of you

6. What's your motto? - From the bottom of my broken heart

7. What do your friends think of you? - Accidentally in love

8. What do you think of your parents? - My bloody valentine

9. What do you think about very often? -  I never told you

10. What is 2 + 2? -  Born this way

11. What do you think of your best friend? - Cry me out

12. What do you think of the person you like? - Life after you

13. What is your life story? - Friday

14. What do you want to be when you grow up? - My love

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like? - What the hell

16. What will you dance to at your wedding? - Because of you

17. What will they play at your funeral? - Live like we're dying

18. What is your biggest fear? - Thunder

19. What is your biggest secret? - The way I loved you

20. What will you post this as? -  A thousand miles

Not bad not bad! Quite true to some extent ;)

Stayover at my house ;)


Kwanwai went my house without telling me she reached my house, and now she left without telling me she had gone for her D&T assignment! :(

Yesterday was kinda fun with her around at my house. It's like, she laughed at every single thing that happened. Typical characteristic of all my good friends. So, slacked around the area then headed to my room with full blast air conditioner. Thank god i even flipped through the POA and realise i didn't know much, so i can consult my good friend later! Watched The Abandoned and dad intrupted us abruptly. So headed to sleep and that sums up pretty much. Woke up today and found out that my webpage forever statistics like this.
twitter: 4.
facebook 2.
dental health teeth website: 4??!?!?
That's weird because i dont even post my web page on dental health teeth! Maybe, they anyhow bomb me as a customer to cheat people's feelings. HAHA, I feel so honoured. LOL. Aiseh only~
I think i should stop whinning and do some work, because time is running short. Alright people, bye :)


I WANT AT LEAST 20HITS TODAY. :(
(i sound so pathetic, omg)

Went to stay at Kwanwai's house during this span of two days! Really exciting because i really get to relax and enjoy to my fullest without any distractions like homework, ICAs, projects. Awesome max. I reminisce about the times we spend in HongKong, the best ever trip i've been to, alone away from family.

Went her house, bathe then started loading chatroulette and playing webcam. HAHA, chatroulette is a damn cool website provided you meet with the correct people! ;)


Watched the notebook and chain letter of death. The notebook movie was awesome but chain letter of death was not that nice. Alot random death scenes and they made audiences damn confused until the ending part. Slept at 4.35am on the bed while kwanwai using her computer. I damn pig cause I damn hard to ton at night. Hahahahahahaha. Went Pasir ris park the next morning and saw Steven near Ehub! :)


 

To her your smile is still perfect picture. Your laugh still echo’s throughout her head and sometimes it finds its way into her dreams at night. She still hears your voice when others speak. She looks twice when she see’s someone who slightly resembles you, in some undying, old fashioned hope that maybe this time… it’s really you. Your memories can still bring a smile to her face. At times, she thinks of the conversations that lasted for hours, she thinks about the moments when you would smile for days. She misses the smile that was constantly imprinted on her face. She misses the bright light that shined into her dark world. She misses that comfort. She misses those feelings of assurance. She misses knowing that everything was going to be okay, just because you said so. She really misses your could have been future, and she hates the fact that you guys never got a chance to do the things you were so sure you were going to do. She misses hearing you sing to her. She misses fighting with you, because you would spend the next 5 hours apologizing. Plain and simple, she misses having you in her life.

Got this from tumblr, so true (L)

Really really upset yesterday receiving the letter from Cambridge. It is the letter of confirmation which i'm going retake as a private candidate for my o levels english. It seems pretty common to retake for my batch'11, since most of us flunked our raw scores because of english mainly. Took a glance of the paper and then i put it aside.

There's no point in arguing what ought to be done and what not to be done. It seems like everything is fixed. Even there's a second chance, your past wont be erased and mistakes can't be undo. It feels the same, the time when I'm held my O level result slip right in my face. I can't even break down, much less crying helplessly. All i remembered was that, I'm screwed, everything is gone.

Blah, whatever it is, Its over. Hope for the best and dont repeat the mistake you've made. Enough of ranting, gonna complete what i'm going do today and head off to kwanwai's house for stayover ;) I really hope that next week, i will glue my butt on the chair and start revising for the upcoming tests. I'm not sure if this is the career path i'm heading, but well at least i know, i should/ought to do my best despite whatever outcome it is. Move forward.

(change the emo topic)
By the way just being random! ChatRoulette is a fun chat website. There's no harm in trying out but you'll see alot weird people, especially caucassians. But please, dont meet them privately in singapore and please press switch if you see weird stuffs! :D

Woke up early in the morning at around 8.45am because dad woke us all up. He yelled at us to quickly change and get ready for the wedding tea ceremony. I wasn't that excited to go for the ceremony cause i know, it will be so damn boring. Aunt got three apartment at pasir ris condo! How cool to marry into their family.. :@ kidding. THEY'RE MY COUSINS FOR GOODNESS SAKE. LOL


I painted my nails the day before the wedding. I think i kinda sucked in painting nails haha. Mom say damn ugly~ :(



This is kind of teacup you'll get before having a wedding tea-ceremony ritual. It looks kinda pretty cool right? ;)


Taking picture on the sofa with Mom, myself and brother while waiting for the ceremony to start. (insert sad face)


Dad brought DSLR without memory card. Like father, like daughter.


The dog which i took care of him when i'm young back at ToaPayoh. Mom claims that she's old already! Happy 10th birthday Kitty. Sound like a cat name HAHA.





End of the morning tea ceremony!

so... when i reached home i slept immediately. Damn tired after waiting for lunar eclipse. I shouldn't stay awake for it!!! :(


My cousin is the guy one! But the girlfriend super super pretty and nice i swear. She's like crying when giving a touching speech yesterday. Damn cute.

(below the picture all camwhoreing, don't see it if you think you can't take zillian people. HAHAHHA)


Having a good DSLR is important because you get to take pretty pictures like this!! Pretty right the conrad bear? I kinda miss working at conrad.

 My mom and I. Though i look pretty fat and ugly with the what the shit hair. Mom looks pretty and sexy! I choose this dress for her ^^!


TOLD YOU. THE CAMWHORE BEGINS HAHAHHA. I'm trying act like I'm eating the flower while waiting for the food to be served.


The damn pretty toliet i enjoyed going. I think i went in like, 5times? HAHAHAAHAH.


The dress which cost 40bucks. Cheap and beautiful right? My beautiful earning cost $2. I'm such a cheapskate womanlady. BUT AYA, WHO CARES.  This picture will look so much nicer with my eyes open :(


#epicmoment1 when you love sticking your tongue out.



Finally a glam photo! I like this picture ;) Honestly i'm still tired after wedding which i don't know why. I'm kind of worried for my dress which i've dumped it into the bucket. Hope my dress will still be pretty and nice xoxoxo.

Today life gonna be suck for me cause i'm going attempt to finish all the stuffs that are undone. God bless and may cousin have a blissful marriage with sister-in-law! :) They're sucha sweet couple that they've been together for 8years. 8YEARS :D

Please continue press my advertisement so i'll blog more. *(threatens)* KIDDING. I'll blog everything whenever i've nice peechaaas to share. So do keep a lookout here!

I promised to blog often so my blog can generate more money by nuffnang! Hahahaha. Yesterday ate this taiwan delight at Compass point and I think that is damn nice cause the chicken damn soft and the black pepper sauce tasted heavenly although i kept whinning why i feel so hot after eating.

Watch youtube videos, gossip and playing at her house HAHAHA.


IDK WHY I LOOK SO SHITTY IN ALL PICS. :(

I wanted to dedicate a post for you,
but i reckon you don't worth any of my time at all.