Exams finally ended. Went into the examination battle on monday with confidence and faith, but ended up with disappointments and regrets. Could have done better with more preparation, could have done better without those dumb careless mistakes. Should probably start self-reflecting and seek for the answers to what's wrong and change it for the good. Ohwell, what's done is done and there's no point in dwelling over the past anymore. Move on, move on.

Hmm.. shall probably embrace my holidays with open arms before another year of school term starts. Watching a drama or catching up with friends maybe? Till then, goodbye.

Last entire week was probably the week i'm really lethargic. Slept at almost 3am in the morning and woke up around 5/6am. Took JustAsia flight to Kular Lumpur for good whoopy 2.5 days! It would be more fun and enjoyous trip if not for my exams today and wednesday sighhhhhhhh. But ohwell, generally had really fun!


Malaysia biggest Indoor Theme park. YAY HAHAHA

Eleven Hints for Life
1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

The best to guard yourself from everything, is to guard your heart.
It seems to me that our heart is the getway of emotions. Hmmm, been reading up pretty alot on astrology and it's really true.

Pisces is so emotional, in fact, that it can tend toward depression or fatalism; the weight of the world can be too much to bear for someone so sensitive. Many Pisces turn to escapist pursuits as a result; daydreaming is one rather innocuous form of escapism.

Trouble trouble. Gotta start to think with my mind instead of my heart all the time.

       

Guess, i really need to work harder for everything that i'm gonna achieve. Yeapppp.

In relationships, there will always be problems and hardships that couples have to experience in order to grow and test their love for each other. And when these problems occur, there’s always the risk of the relationship not being able to pull through, that’s why it results in a breakup. But there are relationships that are resilient and are able to recover from the blow, and as a result, the couple’s love for each other becomes stronger than ever. This takes a lot of effort and commitment on both parties to decide to work things out.

I think i'm really retarded. Only retarded will be in the right mind to take pictures of themselves when they're supposed to study instead. Was feeling really bored and couldn't concentrate studying for the past few days. I don't know was it because of the lack of motivation to do well, or was it because i gave up hope in myself. It's a tough fight i must say, struggling with subjects that you have no interest in and yet with the determination to do well. Is often said that, with great expectations, comes great disappointment. I really don't want to be disappointed with the expectations that i give myself but then again, how can i improve without it? :(

It's only 3 more days to Examinations and i really feel unprepared. God, please blessed me with your strength and wisdom to do well...


LOL. i look like the maid working in the kitchen. HAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

Then release from work, happily take out bun and go home. :D

So glad to have both best friends in my life. They don't try to be perfect to me like any other else and i love them being frank about everything and most of all, i feel really comfortable when i'm with them. Though we might drift away from each other sometimes, we eventually get together again sharing our bittersweet stories, our pain and sorrows. That's what best friends for and i'm sure we've many many years together to come.         :)



They light up the darkness in my life and i'm really thankful for them when i needed the most. There are times when i feel vulnerable and weak and just feel like being alone for good. Was feeling pretty down yesterday and i received a unexpected text message from Sabrina. It really melts my heart and i teared (LOL i can't believe too hahahaha)

Guess, that things will gonna to turn out just fine. Really really glad that to be able to sort out feelings with someone i really feel indebted to. I know that god is watching over us and i'm sure, pretty soon you will be able to find another girl worthy of your time and effort ;) Really thank you for letting me have a taste of how nice guys are, taking care for me unconditionally without expecting anything in return. I'm truly sorry that i couldn't feel the same way as you did, but i'm really grateful for everything and all. Hope that everything will be smooth for you and i wish nothing but the very very very best from the bottom of my heart. Till then, xoxo.

So i'm all alone again, dealing with everything myself. Why is it that I have to go through all this? it's not making sense at all because here i am trying to make things better and then, it seems like nobody is seeing the efforts at all. Yes, you could blamed me for everything that happen, for giving you that false hope and my uncertain feelings, but i didn't cheated your feelings right. I told you that it wasn't the right time for everything and everytime you assured me it was alright that things going to turn out fine. I don't get it why must things turn out to be so sour. You mean that yes, it's all my fault? You mean it is? Okay, then fine. It's all my fault and i shouldn't even turn to you when i'm feeling down.

Why is it that people always love to twist the story around and nobody loves to listen my side of story at all? Best part is, the words from someone that was once my everything. You mean after spending three months of your time with me, you concluded that i'm a two-sided snake which means I've split personality? I don't know whether you're refering that to me but i supposed it is because, my assumptions never go wrong. Or maybe i'm just guilty like what you've said. But nevertheless, if that's for me then disappointing is just a word for you. For thinking how i am and I'm truly sorry for wasting your time in loving such despicable person.

Does pisces always get wronged/misunderstood just because they think with their hearts and not with their minds? Do they always get taken advantaged of just because they cared about feelings more then anything else? Or was it simply because they live in a surreal world that reality doesn't exist. The truth is, i really dont know. All i know is, I have always wanted the best for everybody that is, and that I had love wholeheartly with no intentions. I should ought to really sleep now as its 4.02am but i can't seem to sleep. It's like there's so much bitterness, sadness overwhelmed you and you are choked with tears. Who's there to really care for you when you need them the most? Are they going to be with you till the end? Will they? It's a question that i really want to find out badly.

I guess.. I'll just leave it how it supposed to be. You don't need to convince everybody, but i'm sure there are still people with eyes to see. Done my best, and it's time to let everything go and start afresh if need be. Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong- 1 Corinthians 16:13. A verse i happen to come across while reading the bible. Should probably continue with revision to drown my sorrows. Tomorrow will be a better day, 

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Had a awesome celebration with favourite bestie and co. Time spend on friends its really great cause you get to enjoy and let loose for awhile :)












Till then, xooxo.

It's really nice to head back to church again after so many weeks of intensive mugging and completing project works. Empowered by the word of god and since it's valentine's day, pastor kong preached about love. Love is a commitment and love takes actions. What are words if you don't really meant it? It takes two person to really fight for it and sometimes, it isn't fair for another person to hold on and another wanting to give up when feelings fade away. Celebrated best friend's birthday together with cell group members :) It's really heart-warming to see your fellow cell group members singing birthday song during your birthday. Happy birthday my dear bestie for 9th year! ^^


Our family potrait, E402. LOL. I love Isaac's manchester united shirt. Glory glory man utd~

Was really touched when i received valentine's day card from the E402 guys. Rather funny conversation between Jeanelle and Jeremy.
Jeanelle: Why celine got so many hearts.
Jeremy: Huh, no la. I just drew the hearts for decoration.
(Jeanelle took out a red marker from her bag/borrow/got it)
Jeaelle: Ok, i got the markers. Help me draw same number of hearts as celine.
Jeremy gave the seh face. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.


They say 4 beauty. HAHHAAHAHAHA si1da2mei3nu4. LOLLOL.








Was queueing for macdonalds and then we headed to starbucks for some chilling session + slacking. Life's great when you're with a group of nice bunch of friends. Like, never ending laughter and happiness.

Ready for something goooooood? Here you go! :)
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                                                         TADAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

So cute seriously. I'll blog again soon! :)

Drinking my all time 50c favourite orange juice ;)

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我
對流言會附和 還是你知道我還是我

It's a tough week, tough month for everybody. So glad that everything is settled for now and people are moving on with their lives. January was crazy because there's so much things to complete within such short time frame thus, i didn't have time to update my blog at all. :( I will try to update my blog frequently when i've time.

realise that no matter how hard, how much, even tried hating you, traces of memories still come in bit size pieces. Is it really hard to let go, when you once loved the person wholeheartly? Probably not. No matter what case is, i guess it's just the best for us to end it how it ended.
alright, i'll type a longer post next time!