Such a bubbly, cheerful and sweet girl left the world quietly today. It really saddens me to receive such unexpected news. It's only been a week that we didn't talk at all, why did you left so sudden? I've so much things to complain to you regarding our course work, I've so many things to share with you regarding what's ongoing now. That goodbye from me last week didn't even counted ok, cannot counted okay. You can't just leave us like that, without bidding goodbye at all.

Second time. Second time receiving such news about someone passing away. God, both of them are such a good friend, why did you always have to take their lives away from them then? It isn't unfair cause they deserve their lives more than any other else. Big aspirations, big dreams, gone in a wind. Just like that. Fair? Nope, but you call the shots.

J walks over to me and move my bag while waiting for bus159.
Me: why you move my bag?!?!!?
J: Is me la. Hahahahahhaa.

I never believed in saying this to that special someone "As long as you're happy with whoever it is now, I'll be happy for you" that is yet another one of those cowardly self-consoling phrases. When I set my eyes upon you and made you my choice, I also made the choice to make you happy, that was my responsibility, no one else could make you anymore special than I could.

such great affirmation. I salute you.


x

Haha, got bored of doing projects and decided to take pictures. Pictures are the best thing to capture those happy moment. I think my nails are shiny though i anyhow colour it with some weird colour. It looks nice right in the picture? ;) Haha, trust me you'll get a shock in your life cos' it looks like shitty colour in real life :(


Managed to complete my economics project as well as statistics project. Did my best and gave my all for all the projects. Was rather angsty and irritated over the past few days cause i'm running short of time and there isn't much cooperation from my team mates........ hm, but i glad it's over now, and it's Chinese new year! Angbao angbao angbao. ;)

Ohman, projects are driving me crazy and there's countless of work to be completed this week. Felt really guilty cause it's like, i haven't been touching my revision for the final examinations yet... I can start to feel the tension, anxiety while exams are approaching. Really hope that i can attain a good GPA good enough to get into local university. (LOL, i typed GDP- Gross domestic product, too much economics report).... Hope so.  Miss the oreo bunch of people! Best marketing group of people i ever had in my life. ;)


Only oreooooooooooooooooooooo~ LOL stanley. HAHAHA. Maybe that's how i look like when i step into the workforce in the future. Business woman ^^ Haha! Hopefully.

Still remember vividly this day, this faithful day i received my results and broke down instantly due to my english grade, C6. It was the biggest shock in my entire life, because i thought that english was the only subject i do not have to worry about. That moment, all my hopes of getting into my desire course was crashed because i couldn't enter them at all. Everything was pulled down by one subject, one single subject solely. Any idea how demoralising it is? It isn't fair really.

Today, I went to school with a heavy heart, pondering if i could even attain a C6. Just the same grade will do, not more, not less. It took me alot courage to ignore the slip of paper on my study desk which contained the password for my cambridge o level grade. Leave with it, i told myself.

Around 2pm, received calls, warm text messages telling me that they'll pray for my good results. Melvin was damn cute cause he's the only best friend who prayed for my english results to score A1. (haha) It's really heart-wrenching to get the support from your friends and family while waiting anxiously for your results. Brother received his results at around 2.50 and he's over the moon. Yeap! He scored 12points raw and 10points after deduction for poly! Good enough to enter all the courses he desire to enter and i'm really really proud of him as his sister. Still at that moment.. i didn't check my result cause i didn't want to feel the same old feeling i had last year, feeling upset and angry over my results.

It's only when around 5plus heading to 6plus when i was finally persuaded to see my results. My heart literally stop pumping when the login page was loading on iphone. I was preparing for the worse when i saw, "eh? how come i got one B on my screen!" Looking left, looking right, it was a four. A b4 grade to be exact! That moment, i really screamed for joy and cried for joy. I think god did a big miracle for me this time because i, honestly swear with my heart that i screwed up for my letter writting and my summary. I didn't had time to finish my summary cause i spend too much time understanding the comprehension passage. Really. biggest. shock. of. my. life.

Nobody will understand how it feels, nobody will understand how dearly this english grade is to me. But one thing for sure, i'm thankful for the grade though i think i really, really really really..... (after million times of repeating) really don't deserve that grade at all. Thank you Jesus for the wonderful start for my 2012! :)

For those who didn't manage to meet their own expectations and are disappointed with their results, don't be. I feel you, i really do. It feels like all 4years of education in secondary school was wasted. But think positively, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.It is often said that people that give the best advice, often suffered the most. I agree totally. It's all these obstacles in our lives that built us how we are today. So don't despair, be hopeful and willing to embrace a new start of your life. Who knows, one day you'll get to love the course/path you initially didn't like at all. God bless you and be strong! ^-^

Why can't we, disregard all the imperfections in our lives, why can't we live harmonously?

Decided to blog to take a break from all the hectic, never-ending workload. Life's good when there's long breaks for holiday and you can spend the time with your family and love ones. Was browsing my old photos and i really really miss my old hair :(


But best part is, I MISS HONGKONG ALOT!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Ok sian, i cant upload the awesome fireworks at hongkong disneyland :(((((((((((((((((((((( Bye! Help me press my advertisements, nuffnang! :D

The start of 2012 was a blast i must say, eating steamboat twice in the row and then, spamming karaoke and playing with stylo. Had so much fun till i went home almost 3am/4am. HAHAHAHAHA. Now i'm left with a week holiday and pile and pile of homework/projects are waiting for me to complete them.. On 1Jan, had Kpop appreciation lunch with cell group people! It was fun because we got to dress up like men and black, wearing our shades on. The venue is at fort canning park and trust me, i had a hard time finding that location. Nevertheless, the kpop lunch was a success and i enjoyed myself alot! :)


I look like the mistress of the big gang leader society. HAHA.


Dance dance dance! It was really awesome.

See, the boss sitting in the front. HAHHAHAAAHA. Like a cool right!

Then yesterday after lessons was about to go home when i suddenly recalled i'm supposed to meet brant HAHAHAHA. He's really the best friend you can ever find in your life because you hardly find any friends that make time to bring you to places cheering you up when you're feeling down.Was feeling terribly down because my Econ test results was below expected. Nevertheless, i will never ever ever give up. Went to lower seletar reservoir to enjoy breeze but end up i can't take the strong wind and headed to punggol end instead :) Then there, there's newly built bridge and facilities that can be use for the public already. Awesome ttm! ^^ Share my secondary school life and many many things. Woooooo, really hard to find somebody who shares similar thoughts and willing to give a listening ear.