Still remember vividly this day, this faithful day i received my results and broke down instantly due to my english grade, C6. It was the biggest shock in my entire life, because i thought that english was the only subject i do not have to worry about. That moment, all my hopes of getting into my desire course was crashed because i couldn't enter them at all. Everything was pulled down by one subject, one single subject solely. Any idea how demoralising it is? It isn't fair really.

Today, I went to school with a heavy heart, pondering if i could even attain a C6. Just the same grade will do, not more, not less. It took me alot courage to ignore the slip of paper on my study desk which contained the password for my cambridge o level grade. Leave with it, i told myself.

Around 2pm, received calls, warm text messages telling me that they'll pray for my good results. Melvin was damn cute cause he's the only best friend who prayed for my english results to score A1. (haha) It's really heart-wrenching to get the support from your friends and family while waiting anxiously for your results. Brother received his results at around 2.50 and he's over the moon. Yeap! He scored 12points raw and 10points after deduction for poly! Good enough to enter all the courses he desire to enter and i'm really really proud of him as his sister. Still at that moment.. i didn't check my result cause i didn't want to feel the same old feeling i had last year, feeling upset and angry over my results.

It's only when around 5plus heading to 6plus when i was finally persuaded to see my results. My heart literally stop pumping when the login page was loading on iphone. I was preparing for the worse when i saw, "eh? how come i got one B on my screen!" Looking left, looking right, it was a four. A b4 grade to be exact! That moment, i really screamed for joy and cried for joy. I think god did a big miracle for me this time because i, honestly swear with my heart that i screwed up for my letter writting and my summary. I didn't had time to finish my summary cause i spend too much time understanding the comprehension passage. Really. biggest. shock. of. my. life.

Nobody will understand how it feels, nobody will understand how dearly this english grade is to me. But one thing for sure, i'm thankful for the grade though i think i really, really really really..... (after million times of repeating) really don't deserve that grade at all. Thank you Jesus for the wonderful start for my 2012! :)

For those who didn't manage to meet their own expectations and are disappointed with their results, don't be. I feel you, i really do. It feels like all 4years of education in secondary school was wasted. But think positively, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.It is often said that people that give the best advice, often suffered the most. I agree totally. It's all these obstacles in our lives that built us how we are today. So don't despair, be hopeful and willing to embrace a new start of your life. Who knows, one day you'll get to love the course/path you initially didn't like at all. God bless you and be strong! ^-^