Sometimes i wonder, was it on purpose that you told us on monday or not.

I really don't know. All i know was that i'm supposed to complete on monday and everybody claims that you said the biscom teacher said it. Oh wait. I think you told us on thursday personally, i suddenly recalled.Why didn't you admit it, why?
Fine. I'm fine that you might gotten the wrong information from the teacher, but the least you could have done was to apologise to the class, isn't it? I really detest the way you yelled at us saying that you DID told us on friday. When on earth did you told us that the speech outline is on friday? WHEN? This is the part I'm damn pissed off.

Secondly, you said that you're neglacted by our class. Have we not considered you, the three of us? You took this for granted and you pushed things further. You pushed me away when you wanted to talk to K and pushed E away. What the hell wrong with you?
This is the best proof that we didn't neglact you.
























did we neglact you? No we didn't. We included you in the picture.

urgh, i dont know what's wrong with you but i hope you will change. Like really really change. I hope you'll apologise to us soon.

Haha, okay i'm acting like Raine Yang but apparently, i think i've failed. Ha ha ha ha.

Yummy noodles beside Bugis street. Bought many things today! :)

okaybye, i'm in a bad mood cause i'm having headache, flu now. I want sleep but i've things to do. Urghhhhhh, what's with my life.

what a hectic week..






















So life isn't that great afterall. Computer mathematics results fared worse than Web application due to careless mistakes. I spend a total amount of 5hours in Computer maths and this is what i got :( Web application was alright, 38/40 cause i expected i'll get that ha ha.

Next week really bombared with alot tests and assignments. I haven't even start my revision on web app, poa and computer maths :O I'm so dead but yet so exhausted. It's like, you wanna to take a break and have fun with your friends and yet, you can't have it. I know life sucks but~ haiya, YONG GANG HUO XIA QU BA! ^^

One slightest mistake could bring disasterous consequences. I get it. It's been really awkward talking to you, really. I can't even forgive myself for bringing such hurt for my good friend. I hate this miserable feeling, i really hate it. How i wish everything has a reset button, then i'll not go there, then everything's back to normal. It's not like as if i lost a good friend, but the fact that i dont like it when because is unhappy because of me. Especially when im in a damn wrong this time
 :((((((((

Roar. I hope that things will turn out to be fine.
rainbow, rainbow. Please appear to me again.

I'm going die, with all the thing that is stressing me apart. :(


bye :(

...
so for a moment, i though you're really.. happy to see me. Really, i was really happy to see you yesterday. On my way home i was thinking to follow you back since maybeperhapsithink then.. it all happens.

So tears welled up in my eyes, exhausted and then, started crying alone at the staircase. Too many things to upset about plus i didn't bring my key today to school. Was feeling really really hopeless because i'm desperate to enter inside, my itouch and phone ran out of battery and, i'm feeling rather depressed today, like really really depressed. Nothing is really going smoothly in polytechnic ever since i enter the school. It's like a school mixture of agony and stressfulness. The moment i enter the lecture room, i dreaded so badly because i knew the teachers are going to teach something that i really dislike alot especially Java. I really don't get the thing, i really don't :(

Am i regretting my choice?
Nope, i doubt so. That's because through all the downs i've been through, it's the friends that matters to you the most ;) Like how i made a very good friend in student union and how we're both damn similar in terms of taste (haha boys) and jokes. It feels like i've been good friends with her for so so long. I shared with her my troubles, my past within a day of knowing. Awesome right! Haha. Classmates are awesome too because they're the ones who cheered me up especially karen and enqi, carrying my bag around like a time-bomb, going to south canteen to eat chicken rice and then, gossip and whinning. All this little things are stuffs that motivates me to go on and on :)

I know im damn random, but i'm just want to pour my sorrows out. Really, it's affecting alot. :(



CELINE!!! NO MORE NO MORE I need to hang on, hang on celine alright. You know your friends love you and your parents. Jiayou. You're supposed to cheer people up, not the otherway round. :D

Life pretty a mixture of bad and good. Attended camp fuse last week and i think is awesome! Good part.


Really glad that i've attended it because i get to know really great people with awesome personality and traits. Got pretty close to alot of friends and even form a clique in the group. LOL. Thanks for the memories student union and, group 4! Most importantly, thank you charlene for being my camp partner. We've so much in common and im sure we can be awesome friends! :) Looking forward meeting them on 26may!

Had business presentation yesterday! :(

Bad part. Business presentation was a disappointment. I thought that i wont heavy rely on my notes but end up, i think i rely on it too much :( Nevertheless, what's done is already done and i'm hopeful for the next presentation! 25% of the entire module. I pray that i'll score well enough for GPA.

Life really pretty mundane and i'm losing my life already.
I pray that my presentation will get a B+ at least so that my speech outline can pull it to an A. :(

Damn.. Im starting to become really anti-social and sad about my life. It seems like, nothing is right. Everything turns out hell disgusting when O level results were announced. Facing difficult situation like deciding a course that i dont like it except for business part, going to a polytechnic that isn't in my choices in Secondary school. I remember how horrible was the impression that gave me during orientation, and how i swear that i'll focus and do well.
Do you know when gratuates from university earn a pay of two times the salary of polytechnic's pay? Polytechnic basic pay range from 1,000-1,800. That's bad considering all the factors like, buying a house, a car, expenses, supporting my parents. Shit it.

It's been a month since i stepped into nanyang polytechnic and I've completed my marketing ICA and my Binary test. I want to post it so that i can reflect on my attitude towards studying now. Yes, you ought to focus and set everything aside.

I need enter university. Thats it.

You know sometimes, though you claimed that you don't really love the person before, but deep down you knew that you loved that someone more then anything else. He's once the motivating reason for you to continue on with life, he's once the person you know you can always count on for.

But what's hurting me badly is not the beautiful memories that we can't create together anymore,
But is the damn fact that we're strangers now. It's been two months since i last talked to you, and this awkward silence really kills me alot. I dont know why i'm feeling this way, but i'm feeling thousands of knife stabbing in my heart. I know that this relationship won't be able to blossom anyway and yet, I'd let myself hurting so much by starting this whole load mess.

Now i'm praying that i'll be able to get over again, fully concentrate on studies and commitments in my cca and not let somebody, i truely love hurt me once again. Shouldn't even cry/think about it anymore in the first place.

I think my bloghits drop by damn alot, like from 20plus to 10plus cause i don't really have the time to update frequently. I'm so sorry. Anyway! Just a quick update of what's happening in my life.

You don't see the picture like happy happy, i fake one. HAHAHA, really my life like damn sad now. Revolves around project, tutorial, projects and more projects. Lectures and more lectures. Who says polytechnic very slack ah, WHO THE HELL SAY THAT?!??!?! Cheat feelings only. Okay! I'm a angry girl cause I really cannot take polytechnic stress. Like three weeks and i'm suffering already. * console myself and gives myself some tissue paper*. WHATEVER LAH, move on with life, move on with wind :)

ARGHSHSHSHSHSHS, I VERY LAZY FIND PICTURE AND I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING.
DAMN TIRED. Bye! * gives fly kisses everywhere* :)

Nights all. ;)

I'm finally back to blogger again!
I did couple of changes to the blogskin, style and the design. But sadly, the webpage isn't done by me yet because I only edit the picture and the style that i wanted. I think i'm pathetic because i'm supposed to be master in making blog pages/webpage! I'm having the module Web Application :(
*damn.

So schooling is great with friends around! Dance audition was kinda bad because i think i anyhow spin when the contempory dance music started. I don't get the rhythm and the beat of contempory dance since i'm used to chinese dance for 8years already! I can't possibly change my style of dancing so fast right?! Anyway, i reckon i won't be able to catch up since the instructor teaches very quickly. I pray/hope that I won't get into Dance company since i'm really not into contempory dance. Anyway! Meeting up with Soohuay and Jiashan is awesome because we gossip and loiter around the school especially the damn nice fountain where we watched the royal wedding~ Awesome ttm!

Made friends with Clement and Aaron and I realise coincidences do occur sometimes! Like ohmygod, I actually knew Aaron a year ago during National Day cause he's francine's friend! I remember her introducing to us or something and then went off with her friends. Clement and I had 14 real mutual friends! People like Kelvin Chua, ZongHan from secondary school you know! Cool or what~ Okay pictures time!




Ok! I needa to do some more work already. Time is ticking baby :)