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so for a moment, i though you're really.. happy to see me. Really, i was really happy to see you yesterday. On my way home i was thinking to follow you back since maybeperhapsithink then.. it all happens.

So tears welled up in my eyes, exhausted and then, started crying alone at the staircase. Too many things to upset about plus i didn't bring my key today to school. Was feeling really really hopeless because i'm desperate to enter inside, my itouch and phone ran out of battery and, i'm feeling rather depressed today, like really really depressed. Nothing is really going smoothly in polytechnic ever since i enter the school. It's like a school mixture of agony and stressfulness. The moment i enter the lecture room, i dreaded so badly because i knew the teachers are going to teach something that i really dislike alot especially Java. I really don't get the thing, i really don't :(

Am i regretting my choice?
Nope, i doubt so. That's because through all the downs i've been through, it's the friends that matters to you the most ;) Like how i made a very good friend in student union and how we're both damn similar in terms of taste (haha boys) and jokes. It feels like i've been good friends with her for so so long. I shared with her my troubles, my past within a day of knowing. Awesome right! Haha. Classmates are awesome too because they're the ones who cheered me up especially karen and enqi, carrying my bag around like a time-bomb, going to south canteen to eat chicken rice and then, gossip and whinning. All this little things are stuffs that motivates me to go on and on :)

I know im damn random, but i'm just want to pour my sorrows out. Really, it's affecting alot. :(



CELINE!!! NO MORE NO MORE I need to hang on, hang on celine alright. You know your friends love you and your parents. Jiayou. You're supposed to cheer people up, not the otherway round. :D