You know sometimes, though you claimed that you don't really love the person before, but deep down you knew that you loved that someone more then anything else. He's once the motivating reason for you to continue on with life, he's once the person you know you can always count on for.

But what's hurting me badly is not the beautiful memories that we can't create together anymore,
But is the damn fact that we're strangers now. It's been two months since i last talked to you, and this awkward silence really kills me alot. I dont know why i'm feeling this way, but i'm feeling thousands of knife stabbing in my heart. I know that this relationship won't be able to blossom anyway and yet, I'd let myself hurting so much by starting this whole load mess.

Now i'm praying that i'll be able to get over again, fully concentrate on studies and commitments in my cca and not let somebody, i truely love hurt me once again. Shouldn't even cry/think about it anymore in the first place.