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Is really funny how i love to blog as a "lifestyle blogger" but yet, i get really unmotivated to blog when i open blogger post page urgh. I've been fighting for time so much that i neglected this little space of mine whenever i'm free. Sometimes i wish i could just delete all the unhappy posts back in July, but whatever's in there will eventually mold myself to become a better person and to prepare for the right person hopefully.

We often heard that "God's timing is perfect". Wait for the lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the lord- Psalm 27:14. Seems like everytime i fall down seven, i'll get up eight. Emerge as even mighty, more mature and more sensible. And then, when the right time comes somebody's gonna treat you right. The way you deserve it from the start. It seems like everything's going on, (being there for me, putting small treats outside my door as surprise, making sure that i'm alright, sending me home without fail, every craving, every desire you name it he's gonna get it) is for their chasing party or their partner but this person just want to make sure that i'll smile. Is those small genuinely act that makes you feel really loved.

Not gonna reveal what my feelings at the moment are or how this feeling gonna develop with stranger and I, but i'm thankful for everything. For how genuinely people can be, how it feels to be cared for and lastly, for being such a great friend, accepting my flaws :) Best feeling on earth.

Graduation is coming soon and i'm really not hopeful for this. You see, one thing bad about Singapore's education is that we are so used to the education system and the fixed routine, from primary school then secondary school then poly/junior collage then final destination. The university. I know i'm not a studious type but honestly, what choices can i take. Is either i build the dreams of others, or i build dreams of myself but without money you're literally nothing comparable. And dreams are really costly.

I'm so troubled, so so troubled. I really want to be a dreamer to go for education in united kingdom and the first criteria is money. For local students, they are required to pay euro 1,000+ per month and for international students, is x5 of the fees. It's impossible to go there unless you've a scholarship or you gonna pay for your fees for the rest of my lives. Be it a 30 years loan or 50 years loan. But they also said that " you only live only once" but how can i ever let my loved ones in debt to pay for my education expenses and yet..... i'm enjoying? That's selfish.

I just want to lift my hands to god and for him to decide where my future holds. But i probably should be grateful now and happy how things are :)

And meanwhile, i have been trying to think of places to go for bag pack trips or oversea trip with my friends! Any suggestions? My budget is below <$300 and everybody's gonna call me a cheapo. I'll post a detailed one with all the pictures soon. Hopefully my pictures are still intact because i restored my phone due to software glitch in Apple i think.

Ok ciao! Here's a picture for now. Goodbye!