Was trying to recover my lost username and password for my project and started searching on my iphone note and came across something unexpected. It was dear diary, in which contain heartfelt words that I wished, I read it again before everything happens and on the day of quarrel itself. "While sitting down and look at the sky, i told her i want to marry her one day and make her my wife. And i meant every word because i love her so much" And all of sudden, emotions sudden engulfed in waves and my eyes became teary knowing that acting strong front isn't gonna suceed in the end.

Sometimes i open my curtains and look up to the sky before sleeping. Was it really something destined to end/could we fought harder? No doubt we do have different perspective and personalities, but we did share something incredible. Everything only started fall apart when we started being too comfortable with one another. Like instance texting an hour later, didn't text earlier would turn to be something massive. I know it isn't the time to think about the past, but every day it's like a daily struggle. Everybody's telling you to move on and you're not listening.  How i wish i could always be understanding enough to know what's on your mind and control anger at slighest matters but all this comes too late. It's true that emotions always impair judgement. I wished, you're really happier now.


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