Today officially marks the end of 2011, and the starting of 2012.

This year has been a long struggle for me. The start of 2011 was bad when i received my O level results. Took the result slip and instantly broke down in the school in front of everyone. Thoughts ramming through my mind deciding where to head next for my education lap. Things got worsen when my appealing for the course that i desire didn't make it and had to make due with a course. Classmates are really nice and caring towards one another, but the competiveness of our class is intense. All of them are equally hardworking and smart, which makes me inferior to them sometimes. Struggled past semester 1 with hopes of getting a well GPA but a subject just have to pull everything down, all that i've put in alot effort. Blame myself, blame myself for my stupidity.

People come and go as they please. Those who stick with you till the end are truly what we call, real friends. I've learn to appreciate one another, accepting imperfections, how to treat others right. I really don't understand why do some people just stab their good friends in their back shamelessly and scolding them names. Why? I don't get it. You mean that you never really enjoy their company and you hated them from the start? Are those happy moments worth that.. little? Those silly conversation, those times when you held on another in time of need, those comforting words soon became stares,  venom words that hurt you through the heart. Argh. When can everyone start to living peacefully??? When can everyone start to forgive and forget those who grudge against us, and love them back? Just when people stop to hurt one another and think about others. Why are we so.. just so selfish.

Just when i thought i could be dependent on somebody when i needed the most, they left and exited my life. They left telling me so many reasons, but deep down i know that, they left because they knew what they want, finding a better person in their life. That's how easily replacable i am, or maybe i'm just not good enough for anyone, anybody.

But well! Throughout this messy year, thank god for meeting so many people in my life. I held them so tightly and dearly to me, because they're just so important to me! :) Special thanks to Sabrina and kwanwai for staying throughout with me this year. Especially when kwanwai headed down to find me sobbing uncontrollably on my way home after receiving results. Your calls really brightens me alot during those difficult times. Sabrina for being my soul mate for so many many many years, listening me to trouble and giving the best love advices ever. I'll never be able to make it without both of you and i'm sure our friendship will last forever, and ever. When life gives you lemon, you make lemonade :)

To the special you, i never thought that i'll never meet such a good guy in my life. You're really the nicest person i ever meet in my life and i know that god will definitely bless you and your family. I never really experience the warmth of the family for such a long time, and envy such crazy bunch of good friends you have. One day if i really really become super wealthy like the fortune teller says, i'll never forget you all :) I'll give half of my fortune to you and your family because i wouldn't be what i will be, without your help. Mhmmmmmmmm, that's if it's true! (haha) 2012 will be awesome for you, i'm definitely sure. So go go power ranger! Your bear will stick with me throughout. :))))))))

Ok end! HAHA, usually i will put alot past pictures of 2011, but i realise this year i should try putting my thoughts instead. So 2012, YOU BETTER BE GOOD FOR EVERYBODY!!! :D ^^