I'm feeing miserably upset.

Sometimes, I really wished that I have eyes not to see, and ears not to hear because everything just going to hurt me deep. I don't know or i can't help but to wonder if this friendship was built on the basis on grades, or was it built because we can connect well? And everytime, my eyes feel like welling up because i see things that i should be seeing/hear things i shouldn't be hearing. "why?" is the question repeatly asked. I could forsake all the credits and give it, and yet, everything I'm getting back wasn't quite the outcome i expected.

In all else, i pray to god that i'll forget and things will get better.